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Shruthi Vijayakumar

Degree:

MBA

Location:

New Zealand

Industry:

Social enterprise

Year:

2017-18

By Shruthi Vijayakumar

You must drop the rocks to receive the diamonds

Most people experience that point in the MBA when you simply do not know what to do! I commend you (yes, commend) if you are experiencing this right now.

I came into the MBA programme with an intention to learn how I could shift big businesses to be more sustainable and purpose driven, as I felt I could have the greatest impact here. You’ll find this idea flowing through my application, it’s what I often say when people ask why I am doing the MBA, and is a notion that I have held onto quite tightly and eagerly. Each of us probably have our own story that we tell ourselves and tell others.

Guided by this intention, I began the MBA with a list of questions to shape my exploration. Questions about business models, change management, ownership, leadership, regulation, behaviour change and much more. I began systematically exploring these through a range of activities. I got myself involved with the Responsible Business Forum to learn more mutuality as a way of doing fairer business. I engaged in an extra-curricular programme called Map the System, through which I mapped the levers to move consumer good companies to act more sustainably. I had numerous conversations with professors and classmates, attended talks and conferences, and aligned all my electives to this theme. Oxford truly is the ultimate playground to explore whatever it is that interests you.

After two terms of spending more time thinking about this topic than most of my classes, my exploration culminated in attending the Skoll World Forum on Social Entrepreneurship. I was excited to meet with many business leaders and organisations working in this very space – consultants, intrapreneurs and executives, among others.

As I had each meeting, it quickly became very apparent to me that the theory I was learning was far off the practice. The day to day realities in many cases were mostly about managing politics, and convincing people to do things that they weren’t excited nor incentivised to do. I was reminded how risk averse companies can be, how they won’t change unless there is a crisis or it really convenient to do so. I felt drained coming out of many of these conversations and it became very apparent that this work, at least in the way I thought about it, may not be the right fit for me.

That was scary. Unsettling. Disconcerting. I had held onto this idea so tightly for two terms and it was uncomfortable letting go of it.

One of the most frequently asked questions we get as MBA students is “what do you want to do next?” It’s much harder to say I don’t know, than give an idea – even if it’s not what you really want.

But we must drop the rocks to receive the diamonds.

It’s pretty tough because for those moments, whether they last days or months, we’ve let go of our ideas, and are sitting in uncomfortable uncertainty. But I have realised that it’s only in this uncertainty, that we are open enough to explore that, which may be what we really want, the diamonds.

It was once I dropped the idea of shifting big business from the inside that I was able to see other interests and opportunities that were right in front of me. I already knew I loved to build things, I knew I loved to see people grow and step into their potential, I knew I cared deeply for the health of our environment and our communities. There are many great organisations back home interested in these themes and I can see opportunity to bring these players together and build something new. I don’t think I have received the diamonds, but I think I might be able to see glimmers.

So if you’re in that nervous space of not knowing, I commend you. You have dropped the rocks. We put so much pressure on ourselves to be employed and find work, but in the grand scheme of things, being unemployed for a few more months is really nothing given we’ll likely be working for the next 30+ years. Let’s resist the urge to pick up more rocks, and rather sit in the uncertainty, and enjoy being in one of the most vibrant, intellectual, cutting edge and beautiful places in the world as we be intentional about what we do next.

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